I'm lost

I am missing my happy-go-lucky attitude.. when did i lose it? how did i lose it?? I need to find my way back, the hard way i guess.Stop worrying about everything that gets in my way, do what i always did last time, smile at it and say "bring it on!" But no, I'm still fucking worrying about all the shit that everyone needs to go through. Whine about it all the time, complaining and blaming. What's wrong with me?? I'm sorry that if I had whine all these stupid stuffs at you guys, I will try to be myself again.. Thank you all. Sorry if i had been avoiding people, maybe I'm just too depressed to chat like I'm not. Guess I'm not that strong after all...